“When we love, we always strive to become better than we are. When we strive to become better than we are, everything around us becomes better too.”
Stop to smell the flowers. Stop for a moment to realize that you are this one, almost irrelevant dot in this planet. That your problems will pass. That there are problems out there that are much greater than yours. Not to belittle anyone’s struggles, but shit– the universe watches us everyday, waiting for us to see more of what it has to offer. Yeah, life gets real tough and unfair a lot of times. But as much as I hate to say, cliches are cliches for a damn good reason. And the annoying truth is, every loss is always a gain. AND you’ll always come out better and stronger each time. I wish I could write about something different– something that isn’t it-gets-better-eventually or time-actually-heals-all. But that’s just the truth and that’s just how the world revolves; you’re not always down and you’re not always up. I’d often question the universe and curse it, cause no matter how “shitty” my cards are, there is always something good that comes out of…something. Like, okay, universe. I fucking get it alright. I mean life would be extremely boring if it just went great all the time, I guess.
I suppose all I really want to say is that, once you’ve given yourself the chance to soak in the pain and the suffering that we also call life; learn to stop for a few minutes. And acknowledge your place in this planet. Look around you and find things that you can be thankful for. If you look hard enough, if you really open your heart– you will see life, just happening while you’re so busy doing insignificant things.
Of course it’s difficult to see anything else while you’re suffering. But once you’re over that dark cloud, remember to look around. I promise you’ll see things you’ve never seen before.
“When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it”
My love feels so distributed, and it feels…right. First, I loved myself. Which entailed forgiveness, respect and a fresh hope for the future. Of course this will always be a work in progress. I don’t believe in arriving at a specific destination / desired state– everything in life will always have room for improvement. Same principle as no one is really ever “ready” for anything. I’ll always find new ways to love myself because we are all changing humans. If we are able to love another changing human, we must first give that to ourselves.
Once I felt I was finally healing, I just loved everything else around me. Giving love feels just as great as receiving it, at least in my opinion. From my own family, my job, etc. I really tried to just appreciate the simplest things. This is where I stopped to really smell the flowers. And the results had been filling my heart with happiness. Anything and everything counts. Even occasionally walking home from work and having some time to myself to ponder and contemplate; drinking a bottle of twisted tea and enjoying my own company; discovering new music; doing things I used to love doing; bike rides at the park; random laughter with someone special; the list goes on and on. Most of what I listed are times I’ve spent by myself, something I haven’t done in a long time. I admit to getting scared of being alone. But I know I used to love my solitude, and it feels beautiful to rediscover that part of me again. So what do I mean by my love being distributed? It means I’m not pouring my love on just one person or thing, no matter how important they are. My love belongs to myself, to the universe, to my passions, to everything that I choose to do, to life. And if I ever break, I can pick myself up from these places and perhaps not feel so lost again.
So do yourself a favor and start now. You don’t have to be broken first. Invest, explore. There’s SO SO much more out there, even just right outside the comforts of your own home. Step out there and admire the tree in front of your house, lol. Realize how many seasons it endured, how old it is and how many generations it has seen. Life is so crazy, but it’s also so fucking awesome. I’m livin’, and that’s all that matters. Right now is all that matters.
“Because I don’t live in either my past or my future. I’m interested only in the present. If you can concentrate always on the present, you’ll be a happy man. Life will be a party for you, a grand festival, because life is the moment we’re living right now.”